January 27, 2012

Official Titles

The opportunity came up for me recently to help out a local wedding planner with some of her weddings in the year to come. She presented me with a really reasonable offer and I was pretty excited at first, but after talking it over with the U and taking some time to think about it I finally made up my mind.

I'm officially a SAHM.

Sure, the extra money would be great, and I'd get back into something I really enjoy, but I'm finally getting into the groove of this new gig of mine. And I definitely want a second baby, so I don't want to waste anyone's time with thinking that I'm going back into the workforce anytime soon - at least not unless absolutely necessary.

Don't want to eat my own words one day - because I never say never.

It's just that I've finally come to terms with the fact that I'm not meant to be a wedding planner - in fact, the rat race that comes along with getting clients, schmoozing with vendors, etc. - well, it's just not my personality. I have no problem making the plans, organizing, implementing, but the rest of it I find utterly exhausting, emotionally draining and, to be quite honest, a lot of bullshitting that I'm just not into.

So as sad as a part of me is to give up on that dream - another part of me is so amazingly relieved to let it go. 

I'm still not giving up on the paper design, because that's where my true desires have been for a couple of years now. I hope to one day take some additional classes to better my skills, and hopefully I'll still get a few design jobs now and again from people who really do like my work. But, again, it's on the side. If my life has time for it, if my heart is in it, then I'm going to do it.

So, I've officially given up the title of "event planner" because the only events I'll be planning are the ones that take place with my own family, on my own time. I might not get a monetary check every month, but I do get some priceless memories that I am happy to say, I'll get to keep with me in my heart forever.

Forever.

P.S. The planner was Kimberly Rhodes of Hitched Events in Dallas - she's an amazing woman who was more than understanding of my situation. She also had quite a plan worked out for us that, had she come back to Dallas a few years ago, would have worked out like a dream. If you know someone looking for a planner in Dallas, check her out!


3 comments:

Kimberly said...

Thanks for the shout out, Stephanie!! I miss you in my imaginary scenario already. :)

Lindsey said...

It's great that you're enjoying/embracing the role of SAHM. I think it's always hard to let go of a vision we have for ourselves. I just keep telling myself that the kiddos will be in school in no time and then I'll have plenty of time to work, work, work :)

The Nest Chapter said...

While you would be an amazing event planner, I think you are an even more amazing SAHM. HUT is a lucky little guy. :)